If I could be completely honest, last year was a little bit of a doozy for me and I finally know why. I spent majority of 2013 being discontent with pretty much every aspect of my life. Even though I was growing in my walk with Christ, I still wanted to be in a very different place than I was. I let what was happening around me affect my overall happiness. I was constantly comparing my life to others and while I had everything I needed and was accomplishing goals — it wasn’t enough. I felt that I had nothing I wanted. I was pretty depressed and wearing that good ol’ mask every day–pretending to be just fine. But only a very, very small amount of people knew the truth.
The reason I am comfortable enough to be transparent about that is because I have now made the CHOICE to be content. Reflecting back, I now understand that the reason I was so discontent was because I had very little faith in God. I was only looking at what my physical eyes were seeing and not looking with my spiritual eyes what God is doing. I now understand that God’s perfect timing has me right where He wants me and instead of trying to force God to change my circumstance, I should be living in the present. Enjoying this season.
For we live by faith, not by sight. – 2 Corinthians 5:7
In my previous blog post, I wrote about how our lack of faith is a direct correlation to our lack of self worth. In addition, our lack of faith is also a direct correlation to our level of discontentment. When we take our eyes off God, stop trusting him completely and start to focus on what everyone else is doing, making, and accomplishing we are setting ourselves up to become discontent.
For some crazy reason, we feel like we have the same infinite wisdom that God has. But we forget that we don’t even know what will happen in the next 5 minutes so how can we have infinite wisdom? We will never know more than God!
The bible says in Psalms 139:16…
You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed
We think we are ready and that we can handle all of these things we desire, but God knows us better than we know ourselves. He knows we are not yet ready for a relationship, marriage, a new job that would be more demanding and stressful just to make more money.
You THINK you are ready for marriage. He KNOWS that you just want companionship, a ring, and a fly wedding, but not the daily sarifices and the selflessness that come with marriage.
He KNOWS you just want more money in the bank to spend on whatever you THINK you need but just really want, but not necessarily that annyoing boss that doesn’t let things go like your current boss does or the extreme travel that would come with the job that you THINK you are perfect for.
My point is God knows we just want to experience the good, but don’t necessarily think about the inveitable bad that comes along with it. He knows that most people are not airing out the sacrifices they are making to make their lives appear perfect. He is not saying you don’t deserve the desires of your heart, He is just making sure you can handle all that comes with it first.
Because God gave us all free will, we all know people who stepped ahead of God and did things without consulting Him first. A lot of them are living with the consequences of it. Consider yourself blessed that even though you tried to get ahead of God, He did not let you.
The best advice I can give someone who is unhappy and discontent about where they are or where they are not yet in life is to first have more confidence in Christ. Trust God completely and then count your blessings. Yes, name them one by one like the song says.
Count your blessings, name them one by one. Count your blessings, see what God has done.